Because my heart still harbours compassion

Relationships – any relationship – are labyrinthian in their complexities. In which two people have a connection with each other that would be impossible for another to understand.

via Heather B.

Because of you, I was once put in a situation where I felt it was impossible for anyone else to understand my choice. I was put in that situation for a very very long time. And you never tried to save me. You never tried to help back me up.

Now you are on the receiving end of judgment.

I will never say I approve of what you did and are going to do; but you are not looking for approval.

I can only advise you to find your own peace in your own labyrinthian relationship. You do that pretty well as it is, actually. You are miserable not because people around you disapprove, but because you don’t know how she might react. You don’t need me to tell you that it’s normal; it’s normal for someone who has put their all into a relationship, and yet cannot predict if the other party is reciprocating sufficiently, to feel that way. I empathise because I was once there.

Selfish as you are, I don’t doubt that you are terribly confused now. I cannot wish you well, because it will mean encouraging that which I abhor. You’ve always done things only for yourself, with no consideration for others. I don’t know what I wish for you. A painful and slow death, maybe.

Like I told you, when I said happiness for self, I maintain that there must be no collateral damage, that your happiness should not come at the expense of someone else’s. That if this was the case, one should re-assess the situation. Unfortunately, you find no need for reassessment.

Things aren’t black and white in this world, but need you have smudged everything else in the midst of all that grey?

~ by fayeth on 12 May 2008.

6 Responses to “Because my heart still harbours compassion”

  1. it’s near impossible that there is no collateral damage. in life, there is always opportunity cost. and nothing comes for free.

  2. It is not near impossible. You have just never had the propensity to give it a try.

    And the other parties have to pay a huge price for what you want, so long as it’s not you.

    That’s the way you are.

  3. there is a line than we do not cross as Men, and i believe you are crossing it.

  4. fayeth: it’s human nature to be selfish. I’m not the first and I won’t be the last.

    fool: well, who drew the line then?

  5. It’s human nature to be selfish.

    It’s exceptional to be as selfish as you; you neither draw nor heed lines.

  6. u either have a problem grasping ethics, morales and what not, or its a case of “i cbf”.

    which in that case, i cbf explaining what being a man means to you either.

    I am no high almighty morally clean judge seeking to pass judgement on you. But even one such as I know what is to be abhorred.

    I can only say, too bad for the children.

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